Tired and Stress..

01 Oct 07

Quarrel and quarrel, that is what I do almost every other day.. Relation with him is so strained that I am really tired to even talked back or get agitated..

He don’t accept a whole lots of things… no matter how much time I spend telling or explaining to him, he never understands or even try to..

He only wants compliance..

Why can't he just understand??

27 Sept 07

27 Sept 07

Today was the doctor’s appt and I brought my granny to see Ben (doctor)..
Her condition was not good and her feet started to swell, just like before..
Her stomach seems to be bloated and you can see that its quite big for her frame..

After examining, Ben told me that her condition is worsening..
The swelling resulted coz the water can’t flow out of the body.. in another words the kidney is not working well..
Stomach is getting bigger coz there is water retention in the stomach..
Granny was actually 4kg heavier now, not because she puts on weight but the water inside that adds on..

I hate the appointments, no matter now well I prepared myself, I was caught off guard.. I hold back my tears as much as I could when the doctor told me.. the jokes from the doctor did helps.. Probably he sees my tears building up…

Prepared and prepared is all that I can do.. there is really nothing that I can do to help.. Nothing I can do to change anything.. NOTHING!