The condition is getting no better. Even till now, he can’t breathe properly, he gets breathless most of the time.
He can’t eat, times for dinner when I feed him, he can only eat few mouth of food. He always say 不要吃太饱，很胀。He is afraid of the fullness and that’s why he cuts down on eating a lot of food.
I see him getting thinner and thinner. There is barely flesh, all I can feel is his bones.
Doctor says his condition is not on the good side. He further says that if in event his hearts fails, they will not revive him. Is the doc telling us that its happening anytime from now?
He is being put on chemotherapy now despite he is so weak. I think this treatment will further deteriorate him.
What's the point of controlling the situation now in order to suffer more?
What's the point of prolonging the life if there is no quality?
Its hard to make a decision not to go for chemo cause eventually we still want our loved ones to go on longer... there are so many "what if"
what if the chemo works, what if the chemo kills some of the smaller cells, what if....
Ultimately if there is a chance, we have to try... we cannot take that chance away from him...
That is the only way now..
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